Craig’s Story

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“To the world I appeared successful: Financial advisor and life coach, winning 5Ks and 10Ks in my age class, hero to my family and always the first called for financial and emotional support. But in reality I was overextended and eventually just couldn’t keep up with the obligations I had taken on.

Almost as far back as I can remember I had become a master at shutting off emotions I didn’t like. If it didn’t feel good, I didn’t allow myself to feel it. But now I was frightened and I felt incompetent at facing my clients. I was embarrassed over my own financial failures which would soon become obvious. Overwhelming, paralyzing anxiety would wake me up in a cold sweat at 2 a.m., stomach in knots, sleep deprived. I remember one day putting on my suit and tie in the morning but sitting on the couch all day, not able to go into the office. There was no hope. I didn’t see any possible way out. ‘I need to peacefully go away’ became a constant thought. I had life insurance policies and thought my family would be better off financially if I died.

Through the grace of God I survived an attempt to end my life. When I stripped away all the concerns about the exterior and just got down to the core of my essence, the will to survive emerged. What a relief it was to not have to try to hold up an image of something I wasn’t anymore. If you are experiencing difficulties, talk to someone, anybody. I didn’t and it almost cost me my life.”-Craig

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